Why Didn't You?

From the earliest time,

my mind can accurately recall

You held one threat over my head

,and of all your threats,

it is the one

I remember most of all.

"If you don't straighten up,

I am going to send you away!"

why didn't you?

For me it might have been

a good thing

a sort of rebirth day.

To get away from your lessons

of anger, pain, fear and hate

might have been the best thing for me

freeing me from a hard life

of loneliness and pain and want

I could only dare to blame on fate.

You wanted to be rid of me

so, why didn't you?

Was there such a profit

in twisting me beyond what

my heart could hope to endure?

I bear some scars today the purest love

will never be able to undo.